The Lists Are Posted....

Oh, the anticipation......  we have ALL been waiting anxiously to find out the fate for the upcoming year.  Today, it became known - who the teachers are, who is in the class... the secret is out. Flocks of parents and kids huddled at the school doors at 5:00 p.m. on the dot. 

We can all breathe a sign of relief now and gear up for what is in store next week.  I, for one, cannot WAIT until school is started!  I honestly didn't think I would say that after all the papers and homework, and complaints by May... but it has been a LONG summer.  It's time.

Days Like This

It has been forever since I have written.  Oh, how life changes in the blink of an eye.  My resolutions have all gone by the wayside, I'm back to work, and my beautiful sister is fighting the battle of her life after being diagnosed with breast cancer in May.  I never take life lightly, but things have certainly been put in perspective over the past few months.  Every trivial thing that starts to annoy me is quickly washed away at the thought of what Ang is going to have to endure over the next year.  Every time I yell at my kids for doing some stupid little annoying kid thing, I am immediately stricken with the guilt of wasting a moment with them over something I won't even remember tomorrow. 

But, at the same time... as hard as it is, life must go on.  We all question our existence at some point I think.  Or, maybe I'm just weird.  I don't question, or ponder... I dwell.  But, after years of dwelling, and questioning and regretting, I do know why I'm here, and I know where I'm going after it is all said and done.  Believe what YOU will, but I know what I believe, and that is a comfort I can relax and take some comfort in on "days like this..."

SchoolTube - LHTV Mar. 5, 2010

Okay, so I've failed miserably at pretty much all my resolutions, as evidenced by the two months that have passed since I last updated. But, here is my adorable Maiki in her TV debut at LHES. She was Student of the Day and was VERY excited.

SchoolTube - LHTV Mar. 5, 2010

Happy New Year... (a little late, I know)

Happy New Year!! 
Okay, so it took me a few days (okay a little longer than that) to get back on here, but at least I'm doing it!  It's only January 4 after all. 

Another decade has come and gone and wow, it is all such a blur.  Ten years ago, I was getting ready to take the Missouri bar exam, which I would eventually fail because my mind was a million miles away for reasons to follow.... I was looking for another job because I was working for a psychopath in Shawnee Mission....and most importantly, I was getting ready to go to Hawaii to get married to the "dude" I NEVER in a million years thought I would marry.  The years that followed brought our beautiful daughters, our son and several moves - some good, some bad.  And, it has all come full circle as I sit at home, working part-time, looking for a job, or at least trying to figure out what I want to do when I grow up. 

The past year has been a painful one for us.  Like many people before us, we faced foreclosure and eventual bankruptcy, not because of a bad mortgage...just a really bad house.  I also decided to quit my job in a market where tons of people are unemployed.  I was faced with a decision of losing myself, or losing a paycheck, so I chose me and my family.  But, that decision has not been an easy one for us to adjust to.  The girls have had to change schools for the third time in three years and we are renters again.  Another change was that our beloved Pastor at First Christian was forced to resign, leaving us with a tough decision to move on from the church we have attended for so long.  Finally, Mike has also had to face some demons this year, something that has taken a toll on everyone.

In addition to turmoil and change, we have lost people along the way.  My Grandfather, a good friend Rudy Arellano lost suddenly after an aneurysm, another friend Melanie Miller who died at 38 of a heart attack....very troubling and a reminder of how quickly life is flying by.

So, when faced with my new, and hopefully better year, I have resolved many things, some standard, some new.  1)  Like many others, I still need to lose some weight and get back in shape.  This was made even more apparent after the death of my friend Melanie.  2)  I resolve to try and find a job, or at least make enough on my own to try and take some of the burden off of Mike.  3)  I resolve to tell my little family that I love them every day, because you truly never know when it will be the last.  4)  I resolve to finish reading the Bible cover to cover by tax day.  5)  I resolve to get our finances in order so that we are never faced with the challenges of the past year again.  6)  I resolve to find a new church home.  7)  I resolve to get together with friends, other than my little family, at least once a month.  8)  I resolve to keep up with my BLOG and pictures so that I am not scrambling next year as always.  9)  I resolve to keep my house clean.  10)  Finally, I resolve to live each day to the fullest that I can, and I will TRY not to be so concered with the little things that drive me nuts because ultimately they really just don't matter. 

I hope everyone had a safe and happy new year.